But it's all good. I'm in a very good position to be laid off, compared to most, so I'm just gonna make the best of it.
It's not like I didn't see this coming. I did. The work just wasn't there, and I spent more time trying to look busy than I did actually busy. I really hate that. And I've been expecting it for about a year, to be honest.
So if anyone feels bad for me, don't. I probably enjoyed the last couple days far, far more than is seemly for someone who just got canned. Before last Wednesday, I had no time for my personal life. There's something terribly wrong with how you are living if there is no time whatsoever for yourself, your family, and who you are in your own life. After last Wednesday, the sun has been warm and I can smell Spring on the breeze. For the first time in years I could enjoy that sensation. It was something I could enjoy instead of it being a reminder of all the things I was selling for money.
I realize that my situation is not like many who are struggling in these hard times. I am lucky. My family will tighten their belts and we will try to make a go of living off my husband's income. I will pick up freelance projects where I can. I think we'll be okay.
Right now, my back is killing me. I've been doing laundry all day, tackling household projects and full time child care. I'm exhausted. The four years I've spend a cube-dweller has made me soft. I didn't have a hard job. I'm older and more out of shape than I've ever been and my back and legs are telling me about it.
I feel great.
As for The Five Dollar Mail, I am looking forward to having a bit more time to work on it. I mentioned in an earlier post my goal was to maybe post more often, but as you see it hasn't panned out that way. I seem to write in bites of about a thousand words, and that's been working out for me pretty well, but trying to do that more than once a week hasn't worked out up to this point. I apologize for that. Maybe I can post more often now, and that would be great. We'll see how it goes.
In any case, thanks for reading, and rest assured, I'm still here plugging away.